Pain: Part One.


Recently, I woke up one night to some of the worst pain I have ever felt in my entire life, and none of it belonged to me.

It started off as a dream; I had a very pleasant view of the entire Earth. It was interesting because I saw every single person on the planet at once while at the same time seeing everyone individually. I soon realized this was not just a dream, but an experience God was allowing me to see through his eyes.

"The Lord looks down from heaven and sees the whole human race."
Psalm 33:13

"The eyes of the Lord are in every place, keeping watch on the evil and the good."
Proverbs 15:3

What was once a delightful observation quickly turned into a dreadful ordeal. I didn't know what was happening, but I felt overwhelmed and great sadness started to take over. I instantly understood that I was feeling God's pain for all of the hurting people on this earth.

"I’ve searched the land and found this David, son of Jesse. He’s a man whose heart beats to my heart, a man who will do what I tell him."
Acts 13:22

"A psalm of David. The earth is the Lord's, and everything in it. The world and all its people belong to him."
Psalm 24:1

It felt like liquid being poured into my body. I was weeping so much, I could feel my physical body crying but I couldn't wake up. I saw and felt deep pain from people all over the world, I saw your pain.

I saw rape victims, bad marriages, divorces, people who lost loved ones, family feuds, romantic relationships that turned sour, people who got cheated on, people being lied on, people who got things stolen from them, people who got beat up, people losing their homes, people not being able to pay the bills, people longing to be married, people really wanting a job or a better job, people wanting to start a career or a business but didn't know how, hungry people, victims of war, participants of war, wounded soldiers, people with diseases and injuries, mentally unstable people, emotionally damaged people, spiritually dead people, abused people, numb people, angry people, people who wanted to kill themselves... I felt the pain.

So as the deep pain and hurt got greater and greater, as more of this pain was being poured into my body, I just kept crying. I couldn't take anymore and God said "do you want to see more?" which caused my body to wake up in so much pain in my heart. I was crying heavily.

Plot twist: The Lord then said to me, "that wasn't even a fraction of what I feel".

God loves his creation so much. He loves people, he loves you and it hurts him deeply to see you hurting... more than you know.

"Remember those in prison, as if you were there yourself. Remember also those being mistreated, as if you felt their pain in your own bodies."
Hebrews 13:3

"For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life."
John 3:16